Change in the silence
Changes are often unpredictable. They are a fundamental part of life. And we are usually the ones we’ve been waiting to change.
But sometimes, just some times, those changes are strange. Not that they are not welcome. On the contrary. But in that they seem to affect everything we’ve ever known up to that point.
It is when you see people who have inscribed their names into your heart, now being with someone else.
Or when you see loved ones being happy. With others.
It is that melancholic feeling of witnessing the change that is happening around you. Without you. Despite of you.
It is that feeling of trying to make sense of everything, but no matter how much you try, or how much you think you’ve managed to sort out everything, there will always be that small “issue” in your life that you can never understand.
There are some things in life that no matter how much everything else changes, those will never do. They usually involve feelings. Ones so strong, they can break down every single defense you raise against them.
But at times, regardless of how hard you fight, resistance is futile, because maybe some things are just not meant to be. At least maybe for the time being.
Perhaps in a year or so, you’ll look back at it all and wonder what you were so worried about. Perhaps it is all just a matter of time. And faith.
But like Alan Watts said, “The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”