The wind howled waking her up almost constantly. It was hard
to sleep soundly when you were constantly worried that your entire house would
be blown down. For a person already overcome by anxiety and stress, this was
almost too much to bear.
The morning began with rain in addition to the gale. It was
ice cold outside.
She had promised to meet him at their usual café. She was
comforted by the fact that it was almost certain the fireplace would be on
He was already waiting for her when she arrived. But,
following the gentleman’s rulebook, he hadn’t ordered yet.
He smiled widely upon laying eyes on her. His whole face
brightened immediately, bringing out the sun in an otherwise freezing day. She was
still reserved. It wasn’t easy to let things go so abruptly. To forget. Overthinkers
have this disadvantage. They remember everything. Especially the bad things.
He reached out to grab her hand but she pulled back using
the cold as an excuse.
He was seeking another chance. A fresh start. A new
In her head, a million things were gushing through. Thoughts
of retaliation, of payback, of making him experience the same, of handing him
too the same absolute demands and the ultimatum he so carelessly gave her back
then. She could feel the anger steaming up inside her. Her head suddenly felt
all too hot and it wasn’t because of the fireplace.
She took a deep breath, trying to quieten down the yelling
inside of her.
It wouldn’t lead anywhere. She tried to console herself. If she
acted in the same way, if she wronged him as he had once done to her, there was
no point in even trying to be there together.
Ghandi had said “an eye for an eye
makes the whole world blind”. He was right. There is a reason why one
person must always maintain a superior level. Because if you too retaliate in the
same way, you are no better in the end. Perhaps you’re even worse, because you
knew of an alternative way and did not take it.