Even for days before, Emma was suffering a panic attack. At the
thought alone of what was to come, her breathing became faster, her stomach felt
tied in a knot and she had an unbearable pain pounding on her chest. Her head
felt almost too much to carry on her shoulders, and she was very often dizzy.
Stress was a bad companion.
More so when it was accompanied by prejudices.
We all carry them with us. Our own perspectives and beliefs
on how things will be. They are shaped by past experiences, our mentality, our
notions of reality, of what we’ve already seen and felt. We have an apt for
predicting the future, for irrationally wanting
it to pan out the way it’s forecast in our heads, so that we can pat
ourselves on the back later on and confirm our worst fears, telling ourselves
we were right. It is one of the paradoxes of human nature. Of wishing things
don’t turn out to be the prejudice we have in mind, but of deeply hoping they
do so we can verify ourselves.
The day before the event, Emma broke down. She couldn’t
concentrate enough to do anything. The thoughts in her mind were too much to
bear. She could almost hear a cacophony of voices trying to persuade her that
whatever can go wrong will.
Jonathan found her on the couch, curled up as if willing the
world to go away.
He touched her shoulder and she sprung upright, the tension
having made her uptight.
“You wouldn’t invite a
thief into your house, so why do you allow thoughts
in your head that steal your joy?” he asked.
If your prejudiced things will go wrong, and you adopt a
negative attitude because of it, then things are bound to turn into what you
fear. If it is true that we attract what we believe and feel, it is all the
more important to maintain an open-mind and a positive attitude. Life may
surprise us in the end.